by Ingrid Ward
When I look back over my life I can see that much of the time I was on an out of control roller coaster going nowhere but round and around, repeating the same patterns that always ended up with the same outcomes no matter what I did. I looked, often desperately, for answers to life’s endless questions but couldn’t seem to find what I was looking for. But throughout these unsettled times there was one constant, times when a ‘light’ would be shone that would stop me in my tracks and give me a moment to pause.
It used to feel like I was being offered a reason for keeping on going, not to give up but to trust that there will be an answer one day to all the questions I had about life.
- Goodness I must have been really bad in a past life/lives as look at all the ‘bad’ things that are happening to me now.
- I feel like I’m in a ‘pressure cooker’ class in this life to get rid of all the karma that I have accumulated so why, what’s coming?
- I don’t want to be a teenager again, it’s just way too hard!
So, one day in early February 2005 found me flying into the Gold Coast airport. When I landed I realised that I had left my mobile behind in New Zealand as well as all my necessary papers; how to get to where I was staying, the workshop venue etc. But there was no panic as I instantly knew, as in the past, that when it felt like I was taking a step towards truth, barriers would often get placed in my way. But this was one barrier that had no chance of surviving against the unwavering power of the inner knowing that was fuelling me. Using the airport phone to call in the help of a family member back home I got all the information I needed and off to Lennox Head I headed not realising that my life was about to change forever; I was about to meet a man who finally was going to make sense of the world, my life and me.
The moment I met Serge Benhayon I felt that feeling of familiarity again; that I had met this man before. And as I sat and watched him write the words, ‘The heavens shine on those whose hearts bleed with love and compassion, bestowed upon you is my kingdom’ on the whiteboard I was amazed at the stillness and the gentleness that I could feel flowing from him. And as the workshop began so did my life.
Serge presented so much that weekend; somethings that resonated with me instantly, some that had me squirming, some that got me pondering, but all that left me wanting more. Living in New Zealand with no other Universal Medicine students near me, Serge lovingly offered to be at the end of an email if I ever needed support. He was a good as his word as there were many times I reached out and he was always there with a very quick response, with the warmth, the love, the wisdom and the care that I had felt in his physical presence; but he never ever told me what to do, although at times I wished he would! There were moments when the truth oozing from the messages had me squirming, but when that uncomfortable feeling finally subsided I could never deny the truth that he had shared with me. And the message was always up to me to discern; the choice was always mine.
Over the last 12 years the light Serge Benhayon has shone, for not just me but for humanity, has been constant, unwavering and fuelled by the truth he is presenting to a world that so desperately needs it.
His presentations answered all those questions I had asked over my life, those ones about Karma and reincarnation and even questions that I had not yet asked. He has not only shown me what brought me to that place in my life where I was existing in survival mode, but that there is another way to live, a way founded on love, integrity, and truth; that is the life I now choose to live.
The lights in my life are very constant now, all around me and very bright and I can feel that I now shine my light for others as Serge Benhayon shines his endlessly for me and for humanity.
Every day I celebrate the choice to follow the impulse to travel to meet this very humble and very real man who I now know was always going to be coming into my life, I just had to say yes - and I did, and in doing so gave myself the greatest gift ever: me!