My relationship was coming to an end, my body was fast giving out – suffering with fibromyalgia and unable to continue running my business or to maintain my property.

Serge has been an absolute support and inspiration for me in my relationship with my partner, always there no matter what time of day or night. He listened to me cry, rant, rave or blame, forever feeling like I was in a relationship that had no purpose, a relationship where we were constantly at each other, nit picking, highly reactive to each other. I remember one day calling Serge in absolute tears, I could barely talk, which happened many times during the early years of with my partner and my relationship, and again, he listened intently, offering simple words, ‘Be patient, give it time’. Words I had heard before from him, and all I could think was, ‘Really… again… how patient can a woman be?!’. I was waiting for the ‘I told you so’ however never in my 15+ years of knowing Serge has he ever told me what to do or what not to do … that is the beautiful thing, he never judges, criticises or imposes anything at anytime.

This has been my experience of finding Serge Benhayon, a precious gem of immeasurable quality who has a way of living and understanding the world that changes everything. To say everything is not a piece of hyperbole, there is quite literally not an aspect of my life now that is not different – from food, to work, to exercise, to relationships, to how I breathe, everything means everything.

Since making his acquaintance in 2005 I have transformed my life and much of this change has been inspired by Serge's own way of living – a way that is deeply caring, full of wisdom and clarity and imbued with a genuine love of all people.

It is difficult to thank someone like Serge enough – through his work and his personal qualities, in the space of just a few years he has produced a body of unprecedented labours –

Serge’s sessions felt good, but I was not open and ready for the depth of healing he was offering. So I went a couple of times and then I forgot about him. It was also quite a distance to drive from my house to where Serge was working out of his converted garage in Alstonville.

​Years later, after I had a breast cancer diagnosis, someone again mentioned him and recommend I go to see him. So I met Serge again. That was about 12 years ago. At the time I was trying to heal the cancer myself and I did not want to see any doctors or have surgery.

His healing sessions were/are something else, something I had not experienced before, and this time I was beginning to be ready for true healing. 

At first I didn’t understand what he was saying about breast cancer being about a woman not nurturing herself, as I thought that many of the things I was doing were nurturing eg: eating all organic and mostly raw food, doing juice fasts… 

Hence why we can watch a little bit of war from our warm, comfy, heavily cushioned living room sofa, 30 seconds of what's going on in Syria, and when we've had enough, switch over to, say, Celebrity Big Brother!

​And then there’s the deceptive, polished media images of faces, bodies, lifestyles, all contributing to us detesting ourselves in parts or completely, so we will go and buy a solution to ‘love’ ourselves once again. 

We live our lives through screens and images in this way, and we don't seem to distinguish what is real or fake anymore. It doesn't even seem to matter to us. This creation of images can affect life even more powerfully and stealthily than enunciation, or even enactment. The imagined pictures can lodge way too deeply in the private sphere, especially when the public sphere is already so fragile, dislodging much else. ​

​Over the years I became very cynical of ever finding a philosophy of truth that would make a difference to the world, one that was practical and easily lived. It seemed to me that the world was full of people and organisations who claimed to know the magic of the Universe but with each and everyone I explored, it was easy to see they were not living what they were so very keen to talk about. They took money for what they claimed to know and lived it not. What was the worth of any such claim or talk that was not lived? Their talk changed nothing except to entrench people even deeper in the malaise of the world, being promised answers that were as false as quick sand.

While I had many interesting experiences and a level of awareness, at my core I knew there was more. There was an unsettlement in my body and being and the desire to gather more. Even so there was a part of me that accepted that this might be as good as it gets in the great so called ‘mystery’ of life. After all my life was pretty ‘good ‘by all accounts.

​A close friend of mine had recommended I see Serge, and from what she shared I felt inspired to go along for a session. What has transpired since that first meeting is not so easy to convey in words. 

He made sense of small things – like why it is that we do things that we know are bad for us when we don’t really want to do them, but we do them anyway (anyone who has tried to give up smoking or to eat better knows what I am talking about).

How interesting it is to learn about the different philosophies and belief systems humans have created as a way to cope with life and death and as a way to survive.

But is this truly helping us? Is this collection of knowledge we learn in schools, universities or even self learn, really advancing us as a human race ? Is this leading us to evolution?

​Rather than helping me to escape or offer me sympathy, Serge encouraged me to look deeply at what I was doing. Why was I doing it? What was the quality I brought to life? How could this be something more than just a job, but be about something bigger and grander. To ask the big questions of ‘Where is the Love?’.